A Day of Regret, A Day to Forget

So...

What? 

I can't explain the feeling. I'm not crying, I just don't feel well, severely not feeling good. Of course, who'll be happy if that shit happens to you?! I know everybody will have the same emotion like mine. Actually, I don't even know why am I blogging this, maybe it's because of extreme emotions and for the sake of hiding my feelings to my mom and dad. I want them to see me strong like nothing happens. I want to be the reason why they need to move on and continue a happy life. I know that it's really hard for them right now to accept the fact that our loving Tatay is already gone. But I know, in time, they will recover from this agony. Now, I just need to be their for Mama and Papa.

"Tay, alam ko na andito ka pa rin sa tabi namin palagi. Ayoko man maniwalang wala ka na, pero un ang katotohanan eh. Ang daya mo naman! Di mo man hinintay ung birthday ko! Paano na ung promise mo sakin? Sino na mag-aasikaso ng birthday ko pag wala ka na? Wala na. Sino na ung parating kumakamusta sakin pag umuuwi ako ng San Jose? Sino na ung magbibigay sakin ng paborito kong saging? Sino na ung ikakampanya ko tuwing eleksyon? Wala na. Pero Tay, mamimiss kita! Sobra-sobra! Alagaan mo parati sa Nanay ha, wag mong hahayaan na may mangyari sa kanyang masama. Kung kasama mo na ung dalawa kong kapatid, pakisabi din po na bantayan nila si Mama at Papa na wala ding mangyaring masama. Ako po, kaya ko na ung sarili ko. Sobrang mamimiss kita Tay! Mahal na mahal kita!"

September 25, 2011 - Sunday, a day of regret, a day to forget.

09-25-2011